First thing I'd say is prob to not seek advice on forums such as this one, toxic replies can make it worse.
On a secondary note; you're 14, life's definitely going to get much harder and whatever you're going through right now is all in your head, it's easy to self diagnose depression, it's all so accessible nowadays with the internet,
Go look for some hobbies make new friends join some new classes, take up a sport etc.
There's sm to do at 14 with hardly any school work, enjoy your more stress-free years, you don't wanna reach 20 and have had a shit past. Focus on positives and move forward - set a goal & try and achieve it, dont just sit and think about being depressed, that's what actually makes you depressed.
All shit aside, hopefully you start feeling better soon mate, :hype:
I really had a shitty past when i was like 5 im like a antisocial person i dont really have friends all i do is reading a same textbook whole years like a fucking nerd and when i was 8-10 years old i knew about hacking i got on a forums like this learnt a lot like how malware works and hosting a botnet i also had an interest in programming i started to learn VB.Net when i was 11 and my whole life spent on internet I got some friends but not so much I'm having a lot of fun with them but when i got home everything start to fall apart and i hate even a small noise
Idk if i had life all my life was spent on computers
How often do you masturbate?
Probably should cut that out if you do.