Hi bud, if you're looking for real advice in a forum like this, I don't think it's a good choice.
Having several friends diagnosed as a person with clinical depression, what I think will best for you in this moment is looking for an environment where you're accepted as who you are, while they would not hesitate to share things that they think will be the best for you, because otherwise you will be stuck on a condition where others will hinders your growth because they only care about your current self. Still, the environment where you are feel like you're the greatest loser isn't good either. Also if you're having good relationship w/ your family try to open up little by little as in your state what you'll need most is a companion. Just chat if you need one! :)
Best of luck!
