Hope you get through this. I have anxiety, depression and other issues going on. I personally find meditation helps me. not like this OOMMMMMM type stuff, Just some lofi music and a quiet space. Try to focus on breathing, sitting relaxed and clearing your mind of stress. remember, stressing about things doesnt change them, only positive action can change your path.
I dont mean any disrespect but i also think you may have self confidence issues? If you want to DM me, i can give you some confidence excersises that helped me out.
I used to be very shy, now i am confident but not cocky (if you know the meaning of that) I have been in the photography industry for a few years (about 10) now and i have got to the point where i can approach strangers without fear and ask them if i can take their portrait. (quite an intimate question) 9/10 the confidence shines through and i get the shot i want :-)